Random stuff

Ever since Laila died, all of us have irrational thoughts about death. I already wrote about Will and his challenge at night sometimes thinking his brothers are dead while they sleep. He's not the only one with problems like this. Of course, when Mike and I go to check on the boys at night we always have this brief thought, "Are they alive?"

The other time we have these thoughts are when we are not together for awhile. While Mike attended the Priesthood session, the boys and I went to a birthday party at a park. Our GPS isn't working very well so I was worried I wouldn't be able to figure out the way home. Mike knew this and worried about me. During a good portion of the Priesthood session Mike kept getting distracted by thoughts of, "What if they all got in a crash and died?"

Then last night, Mike had to be somewhere at 7:00. I assumed his meeting would be an hour tops. Two hours later he wasn't home yet and I started getting worried. So I called him and he said he was on his way home in a few minutes. I fell asleep at 10 and at 10:30 I got up and discovered he was not home yet! Of course thoughts of him dying a gruesome death came rushing through my mind. At 10:45 he came in and rather than being happy to see him I was so upset--something he knows very well about me--I kind of have a problem showing anger instead of fear or sadness. But for Pete's sake, four hours later?! It's not cool to make me worry about him like that.

Well, when we aren't all worried one of us is going to die, we are doing other things to keep our minds busy and I've included lot's of pictures to show what we've been doing.

First up: Isaac and Eli playing together! Hooray for half day kindergarten! I love that they get to play together. Of course, they do A LOT of fighting too. So when they play well together I have to have proof. Hence, the pictures.

And look at that blue sky! We are getting Utah's yucky weather this weekend though.
Next, I've been organizing--or trying to at least. We still have some problem areas in our house with clutter that I just don't know what to do with. I bought these cork boards to put the boy's papers (they go to different schools so I get confused about who's papers belong to which school). Hopefully I'll get them spruced up a bit--maybe a fabric flower or their names on their boards. I don't know. Something.
Third, I'm having fun making silly lunches for Will. He gets embarrassed sometimes because the kids giggle at the silly faces on his sandwiches. I certainly don't want him to be embarrassed so when he says to stop I will. And, he doesn't always get fun stuff--just when I'm prepared. He's had silly teeth made from apples and peanut butter and marshmallows, ants made from toothpicks and grapes and then the stuff in the pictures below. Oh, and sometimes I use a big cookie cutter to cut his sandwiches. I saw a Ferb sandwich on Pinterest that Will is going to LOVE (he loves Phineas and Ferb).

This picture goes with my organizing stuff. It cost me five dollars for the frame and then I used scrapbook paper I already had to make this menu list.
Fourth, I mentioned Laila has a neighbor. Events happened that allowed me to meet the mother of Laila's neighbor. She's wonderful and I'm excited to be friends--how we met is so crazy and God definitely played a part in us meeting. We went to visit Laila after conference and Isaac had to get a picture next to her. Last time we went he fell asleep in the car and was heartbroken he didn't get to see her so this time he insisted on a picture.
Fifth, I painted the guest bathroom. This yellow looks brighter than it actually is. It's a very pale yellow. I painted the white flower on the wall and then made the little puffy paint flower on canvas. It looks greenish but it's actually a blue. I think I'm done painting for awhile. I still have my room and the boy's bathroom, and my bathroom as well as the hallway upstairs but I need a painting break.

There you go, projects and thoughts of death.