Saturday, January 05, 2013

Erasing the bad

If it were possible to have a magic eraser that would wipe certain experiences or memories from my mind, I think I'd use that eraser to erase a large portion of this month from my memory.  Honestly, it's been a long, long month.  

I'd start with the labor and longer than normal recovery, then move on to all the doctors visits for the bilirubin levels.  I'd erase the UTI I got and the rash from the reaction to the medicine I was prescribed.  I'd want to forget the doctor's visit where we learned the baby had hip dysplasia and the sadness I felt hearing that it was probably from my hormones, just like the cyst she has on her ovary is from my hormones  (It's always welcoming to hear that your hormones wreak havic on your child).  Next I'd erase the persistent fever Isaac had right before school got out, followed by Eli and Will throwing up.  

If I could erase the two and a half to three weeks of Piperleigh crying incessantly I would.  Especially that.  I'd like to pretend that I never had to go on a non-dairy diet to make her feel better.  

I'd erase this second round of the pukies that has Isaac and Eli and my poor mother-in-law hurling their cookies (or wanting to in the case of my mother-in-law).

And finally, I'd erase the memory of getting my wisdom teeth removed.  (though, I guess the anesthesia did some of that for me...) 

I'd just use my magic eraser to give one big swipe to all of it and leave me with just the good. 

 And there is some...

Like the fact that labor brought our sweet Piper here and I am no longer pregnant.  Or the blessing Mike and a friend gave the baby that healed her hip displaysia.  Or the reflux medicine that seems to be helping Piper feel better.  And even though I'm quite limited in what I can eat with this new diet (and hungry, I might add) I'm grateful it seems to be contributing to her current calmness.  Finally, the wisdom teeth recovery hasn't been as horrible as expected, though not fun, and it will be nice when I'm not a chipmunk anymore.  

I am hoping the next five weeks won't be as eventful as the last ones.  


The Duke said...

Oh, my poor, poor daughter... so much to deal with in such a short period of time. I hope the next few weeks are much better. I wish I was there to help out.

Lindsay Bryson said...

I love your blog :) but I am so sorry about everything you and your family have been through. I wish there was something we could do to help, when you feel up to it I would love to bring some dairy free cookies over and fold laundry, do dishes and or just hang out. our thoughts and hearts are with you and your family <3

Kristi, Liezl, Quincy, Ava, Cora, and Josh said...

Oh, wow!!! I am so sorry you had such a terrible December. Just one of those things would have done me in. Hang in there, January will be better.

Frances said...

Oh man Adrianne! You deserve a magic eraser for that indeed! Kids being sick is one thing, but when we feel bad on top of it, it is almost impossible. And during Christmas adds a special sting to it!! I hope you don't have to be off dairy for too long, it is no fun. I was off it for all my teen years trying to figure out a sickness and I agree with you that I was always hungry! Toasted marshmallows were a fun treat. Health food stores sell vegan chocolate chips... you could have oven smores!

Michelle said...

Wish we lived closer and I'd be over there to help all the time. I hope you feel better soon. Tooth pain is no fun, none of the things you mentioned are fun, so hopefully you start having Joy soon and things look up to be an awesome 2013

Jess and Jason said...

I think this means you are all stocked up on sucky things and that the rest of the year will be incredible!