Will's first day of school

He wanted to make sure I got some pictures of him with his cool backpack.

Today was the first day of school for my William. I've been dreading this day for months (probably longer--like his whole life). I just really, really love having my boys near me. I love having them home. I finally decided that there was nothing I could do about this change, he had to go to school and I had to let him go sometime (what will I do when he leaves on his mission!!?). So when I drove him to school and walked him in his classroom I was ok. I gave him a hug and told him to be good and listen to his teacher. Then I left and he was too interested in the cool cup on his desk that his teacher had filled with school supplies to even care that I was leaving.

I let Eli sit in the front next to Isaac instead of in the back by himself and he was confused. "Where's Will," to which I responded, "At school." Though, it was more like, "At (choke on a lump in my throat) school (blink quickly so the tears don't fall)." And then we were all ok. I took the two boys to the park and we had a great time and we visited a friend and then a thought popped into my head, "You can go on walks again."

We went to pick Will up from school because I am definitely not ready for him to be in school AND riding the bus (except he really wants to so I'll probably give in and let him ride the bus home). I fully expected him to talk my ear off and be so excited about his day and was very surprised to find him lack luster about his first day. When his aunt called and asked him if he loved his first day he told her, "I wouldn't say I loved it. I liked it, but didn't love it." It was like pulling teeth to get anything out of him.

I'm hoping things will get better for him as he learns the rules and makes more friends. Pretty soon Isaac starts attending a preschool co-op so I'll be down another of my babies and I'll be left with just Eli wondering what the heck I ever did when I only had one kid.